Poezia: Husik Ha'u..

Ha'u lakohi midar, mos lakoi moruk..

Maibe, wainhira ha’u halai maka’as keta, keta hapara ha’u. Husik ha’u fuik, husik ha’u soke anin, husik ha’u halo rai-rahun suar.

Iha ha’u nian monu husi halai, bisu-bisu mai liafuan habrani atu a’an ne’e tuba halai makas liu tan. Hodi halai makas ba oin, soe nakukun no metan iha kotuk.

Nune’e ha’u mos bele hananu bainhira rona manu-fuik sira hananu no katak sai fulan naroman ne’e furak.

Osaka, Japaun. 06 Dezembru 2016

Mariani VK.

Three Humans in a Moment

Live three humans in a small island country called Timor-Leste, they have strong relationship without blood tie that any civilization would say  friendship. They are Mariani, Rui and Lonia. A movement to protect environment in Timor-Leste that they created as idealism and spirit of their young fire brought them to loving moments, big quarrel, conversation with children that throw away their drink bottle in the beach until having conversation with government high officials.

Life’s heavy weaves finally smacked down their togetherness. Far and long time after apart, they have their own dream path. But, in a fine day globalization cable known as internet chat connect them in conversation;

Mariani: Here I’m sitting on wood chair near the lake in my campus watching leaves changed color to red and gold, its dancing smoothly when freeze autumn’s wind blowing. And here I ask you to please receive my congratulation for your wedding my best friend ever Lonia. I wish I was there to see your happiness tears drop. PS: Was Rui with his new girlfriend in your wedding?

Lonia: I hate Rui! He made prank of me in my wedding party, can you belief that?! Anyway, thank a lot my dear best friend! Missing you in my wedding. PS: Rui was alone in my wedding.

Mariani: I hope your hate feeling to Rui not as much as my love feeling to see jelly fish when it dancing in the water. Rui loves you more than ant loves sugar’s grain.

Lonia: You make me missing you, Rui, leafs, wind, jelly fish, ant, sugar.. I love you and Rui and you both know that.

Mariani laughing out loud of Lonia’s message and the same time having remind her and Rui’s planning to make prank about their best friend in her wedding party.  

Osaka, November 04th 2016

Mariani VK. 

Three Humans in a Moment

Live three humans in a small island country called Timor-Leste, they have strong relationship without blood tie that any civilization would say  friendship. They are Mariani, Rui and Lonia. A movement to protect environment in Timor-Leste that they created as idealism and spirit of their young fire brought them to loving moments, big quarrel, conversation with children that throw away their drink bottle in the beach until having conversation with government high officials.

Life’s heavy weaves finally smacked down their togetherness. Far and long time after apart, they have their own dream path. But, in a fine day globalization cable known as internet chat connect them in conversation;

Mariani: Here I’m sitting on wood chair near the lake in my campus watching leaves changed color to red and gold, its dancing smoothly when freeze autumn’s wind blowing. And here I ask you to please receive my congratulation for your wedding my best friend ever Lonia. I wish I was there to see your happiness tears drop. PS: Was Rui with his new girlfriend in your wedding?

Lonia: I hate Rui! He made prank of me in my wedding party, can you belief that?! Anyway, thank a lot my dear best friend! Missing you in my wedding. PS: Rui was alone in my wedding.

Mariani: I hope your hate feeling to Rui not as much as my love feeling to see jelly fish when it dancing in the water. Rui loves you more than ant loves sugar’s grain.

Lonia: You make me missing you, Rui, leafs, wind, jelly fish, ant, sugar.. I love you and Rui and you both know that!

Mariani laughing out loud of Lonia’s message and the same time having remind her and Rui’s planning to make prank about their best friend-Lonia- in her wedding party.

Osaka, November 04th 2016  

Istoria Badak : HAMROOK BA BEE HAMOSU MATAN-BEEN

Istoria Badak ne'e mos publika iha Jornal Independente iha Pajina Hakerek Kreativu edisaun 30 Setembru 2016.

Hamrok ne’e haterus mos.

Kalan ne’e udan sei tun husi lalehan, maibé udan-rahun deit. Ambere hamrik hela iha odamatan dapur nian hodi se’e ninian liman rua ne’e ba udan-been mos nia kontinua se’e ninian nanal ba udan. Ambere haksolok tebes, Ambere nian ksolok ne’e hanesan ksolok ema sira ne’ebé halo dahur, hanesan ksolok manu aman ne’ebé hetan batar musan husi nian nain iha dader no hanesan ksolok ai-funan roza iha Maubisse ne’ebé hetan maho-been iha dader. Ambere no nian familia hanesan balun husi lubuk familia iha Timor ne’ebé tenke servisu makas no todan tebes atu bele hemu bee kopu ida.

Ambere para nian tempu ksolok ho undan-been ho ninian inan nian lian sopranu, “Ambere…!!! Lori ember tinta fatin rua ne’e se’e udan-been hodi aban ita lalika susar-susar atu buka bee tan ona!”. Rona ida ne’e, Ambere  halai ba dapur laran hodi halo tuir saida maka ninian inan haruka. Ambere hamnasa ksolok los no hamnasa ksolok ne’e nia lori mos ba ninian mehi kalan ne’e.

Ambere loron-loron tenke esforsu an ba buka bee to’o iha rotunda Presidente Nicolau Lobato, Comoro husi sira nian uma ne’ebe ninian didin hari’i husi ai-bebak ne’ebé komesa lahuk ona no lanahe sumenti maibe rai. Ambere nian uma ne’e iha Aldeia Moris Foun, Tasi-Tolu. Sira nian uma ne’e iha foho-lolon hateke ba lagua daruak husi lagua bee-masin Tasi-Tolu.  

Meiudia manas no maran ida mosu mai depois udan iha kalan naton ne’ebá. Jerigen sira hare husi laran atu kor metan tanba bee ten no iha liur kor malahuk tamba tahu no karosa ho roda laiha ár maka sai ninian belun iha oras depois sai husi eskola Pre-sekundaria 30 de Agosto, Comoro. Belun ba buka bee hodi fo moris ba nia familia; ninian inan, alin mane bebe no ninian aman. Ho oin tristi, Ambere nian inan hameno ba nian oan mane molok nia atu sai ba buka bee “doben.. agora o maka tenke ba buka bee ba ita, ama labelek sai tanba sé maka atu hare o nian alin mane bebe ne’ebé  seidauk bele lao tan. O nian aman mos labelek ajuda o tanba nia ba buka osan fo ita. O, ba mai lalais hodi ama bele tein ba ita han.” Ambere hamnasa ki’ik ba ninian inan hodi dudu karosa ne’ebé nakonu ho jerigen tun rai-lolon. Oras hatudu ona tuku 13.23 no kabun mamuk ho nune’e Ambere iha espera boot kanu bee iha terminal Tasi-Tolu labelek maran, selae nia tenke to’o ba iha rotunda Presidente Nicolau Lobato, Comoro no fila fali mai uma lokraik ona no sira nian han-meiudia bele sai han-kalan. Bainhira dudu karosa nakonu ho jerigen, tuituir estrada ne’ebé falun ho rai-rahun ne’ebé dalabarak halo Ambere kose nian matan, loro-matan nian manas mai ataka halo Ambere nian kosar turuk aumenta tan motor ou kareta sira nian klakson hadiuk Ambere, maibe buat sira ne’e hotu laos razaun ba Ambere atu para no fila ba uma. Tanba, Ambere no nian familia presija bee hodi han.

Kanu bee iha terminal Tasi-Tolu maran duni. Maibe, iha estrada boot ninin besik terminal nia hetan has manggal no lakeru mutin lima ne’ebe karik monu husi kareta angguna ne’ebe lori modo-tahan atu fa’an husi munisipiu sira husi parte loro-monu mai Dili. Agradese ba Maromak, Ambere hili maka has deit, nata has manggal ne’e tamba lakeru mutin ne’e dodok no nakonu ho rai-henek, no kontinua dudu nia karosa no iha ninian laran Ambere komesa koalia “Ama, ne’e bosok dala-barak ona. Apa nian servisu maka taka bola guling kuandu manan, nia ho ninian kolega sira hemu tua mutin iha ai-matan dukur nian hun sira ne’e. Fó osan ama barak liu maka lima dollar. Fila mai uma hirus hela deit kuandu kafé ama lahalo. Ama lahalo kafé ba Apa ne’e mos tamba bee la iha ou dala barak mos tanba ami nian masin-midar no kafé uut hotu. Sé hanesan ne’e ona, ama sei halai lalais ba kios iha ami nian uma-okos hodi hamaus kios nain, Tia Domingas hodi debe kafé uut ou masin-midar. Kuitadu los Ha’u nian inan ne’e maibe nia mos beik”. Ambere nian karosa para derepenti tanba nia hare bee sulin istraga los iha istrada boot ninin area Seroja Rai-Kotu, tanba hare ba mai ema laiha, Ambere mos hatun lalais nia jerigen sira ne’e hodi komesa ense bee. Derepenti avo mane ida mosu mai ho borraxa metan naruk iha liman no nia hase Ambere ho lian mamar, “Ano, kuru lalais ona ba.. tanba Ha’u atu kesi metin kanu ne’e, ami nian bee lasulin ba uma loron rua ona. Tanba kanu bee ne’e kotu.” Rona ida ne’e ho oin ksolok Ambere hatan “diak avo! Obrigadu eeehhh ha’u kuru lais deit”. Avo ne’e hamnasa ki’ik ba Ambere hodi kontinua ko’alia “kanu bee at iha istrada ninin ne’e laos maka ida ne’e deit, iha Dili laran ne’e kuaze kanu bee at hotu.” Ambere ho oin seriu rona saida maka avo ne’e ko’alia, avo mane ne’e kontinua ko’alia “dadersan nakukun hader ona, hodi ita ba hili ( elisaun ) sira sa’e ba tur iha kadeira boot, dehan tanba sira maka matenek boot. Maibe, depois ne’e atu rezolve deit kanu bee ne’ebé at mos labele hotu.” Ambere nian jerigen mamuk sira ne’e nakonu ona ho bee ho book an lais Ambere lalin jerigen sira ne’e ba nian karosa laran, antes dudu karosa fila Ambere dehan ba avo mane ne’e, “tuir fali mai avo sira toba laliga rai tia deit, kanu bee diak ona ba maka hader sedu ba sira. Hau fila lai avo… obrigadu”.

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Ambere to’o iha uma..

Ambere ho nian karosa ne’ebé nakonu ho jerigen ense bee mos to’o iha sira nian uma kotuk, iha momentu hanesan nia rona nian inan koalia ba nian aman ne’ebé tur doku hela ulun ba meja han ne’ebé malahuk ona. Ninian inan dehan “Agus.. ita nian uma-kain ne’e hasoru problema oin-oin, maibe sei ita nian orsamentu diak antaun buat hotu sei diak”, Ambere nian aman hamrik derepenti husi nian tur no hakotu nian fen nia liafuan ho hakilar makas, nia dehan “asu inan! O ko’alia hanesan fali matenek boot ida! Lori kafé mai! Ha’u lanu hanesan ne’e lalika ko’alia barak!”. Matan-been sulin, Ambere nia inan hatan “bee la iha! kafé no masin-midar hotu! osan hotu!”. Ambere nian aman riba meja han malahuk ne’e no hakilar makas dehan “bee la iha ne’e ba kuru! Laos tur, han, toba deit iha uma! Ambere iha ne’ebé?! Haruka nia ba kuru bee! lalais Ha’u atu hemu kafé! Taka bola guling, lori osan mai, imi tibak ne’e mos servisu makas! Feto moe laiha han, toba iha uma deit mos hakarak ko’alia oin-oin!” no Ambere nian aman taka ho fo basa makas ba Ambere nian inan ninia hasan. Hare ida ne’e Ambere laran taridu no halai husik hela karosa ho jerigen nakonu ho bee sira ne’e no halai soe hela mos ninian inan ninia matan-been no ninian aman nian hirus.

Rai-nakukun ona Ambere fila mai uma, hare ninian inan tur hela iha ahi-matan hodi prepara ai-han kalan nian Ambere halai ba hakuak nian inan ninia ain no tanis no lian dodok dehan “Ama..nusa maka terus nune’e? Lolos, Apa tenke hadomi ami oan sira no Ama tanba ita sempre kumpri nia no hadomi nia”. Ambere nian inan hatan “labele ko’alia nune’e, at ka diak nia ó nian Aman, lulik! labele ko’alia at ita nian inan-aman. Pasiensia deit oan, ne’e maka ó tenke estuda makas hodi ó sei la moris iha kiak nia laran, rona ka lae?” ho lian laran dodok no matan-been Ambere hatan ba nian inan “diak ama, ha’u sei estuda makas hodi eskola hotu lais ona hodi buka servisu para lori osan mai Ama”. Rona ida ne’e, Ambere nian inan hateke naruk ba nian oan nian matan no katak sai “oan, ba eskola hodi aprende, buka hatene saida maka ó ladauk hatene laos atu hotu lalais. Tanba sé ó hatene, ó sei bele rezolve”, rona ida ne’e Ambere hamos matan-been no tur hateke ba nian inan nian oin no komesa ko’alia “los duni saida maka Ama ko’alia ne’e, tamba ohin avo mane ida dehan kanu bee iha Dili laran kuaze at maibe Boot sira ( Nai-ulun ) sira la rezolve deit, karik tanba sira lahatene no sira uluk eskola buka hotu lais deit karik la estuda didiak”. Ambere nian inan hamnasa ba nian oan nian inosente ne’e maibe nia sinti urgulhu ba nian oan mane boot ne’e “Ama nian oan doben ne’e mos agora ko’alia politik ona eehh, hare aruma meja ona, hodi ita bele han ona. Sei lae, ó nian aman bele hirus fali tan ona”.

 Kalan ne’e Ambere ba toba ho matenek ne’ebé nia hetan husi nian inan no avo mane ne’e, ne’ebé sira nain rua lahetan iha institusaun akademiku maibe problema sosial sira iha Timor maka fó matenek ne’e ba sira.

Osaka, Japaun. 01 Outubru 2016

Mariani VK.

Kambodia; Nakukun No Mos Iha Naroman

Hau tur iha ema lubun bo’ot nian le’et  iha aviaun laran, ami semo husi Osaka, Japaun fatin ne’ebe hau hela ba agora ho diresaun Siem Reap, Kambodia. A’an ne’e husu ba fuan ne’e “saida maka hau sei aprende iha Kambodia eehh?”. Iha hau nian lemo rai ida ne’e dadaun, Nasaun Kambodia laos hau nian obejetivu, hau nian objetivu maka atu partisipa ASEAN Youth Forum 2016 hanesan partisipante mai husi Timor-Leste. Maibe, Kambodia oferese liu ida ne’e. Lisaun osan mean barak maka hau hetan ona. Hau sei la koalia konaba’a sakunar sona ne’ebe hu han iha Kamobodia, sei la koalia mos Kambodia nian furak liu husi Angkor Wat no Kambodia nian hahan ne’ebe gostu tebes ou ninian sidade, maibe..

Durante iha ASEAN Youth Forum 2016 hau halo diskusaun iha area oin-oin ho kolega sira mai husi nasaun ASEAN, maibe iha fraze ida husi kolega balun dehan “Kambodia uluk liu dezenvolve ona hanesan Nasaun Singapura agora dadaun ne’e”, momentu ne’eba mosu kedan pergunta husi hau, maka antaun halo-nusa maka agora Kambodia sai hanesan nasaun kiak liu iha ASEAN? Kambodia nian riku soin sira ne’e ba lerek ne’ebe? Tamba tempu limitadu kolega sira la bele hatan hau nian pergunta sira ne’e maibe, hau nian lemorai ba Sidade Kapital Kambodia, Phnom Penh maka hatan pergunta sira ne’e.

 To’o iha Sidade Kapital ne’e iha dader madrugada tuku 5 ho bis kalan husi Sidade Siem Reap. Kolega Kambodiana nain rua lao akompana hau ho kolega Mianmar ida no ami to’o iha fatin ho naran Killing Field, fatin ne’e maka sai hanesan fatin oho ema Kambodia lubuk husi Rezimi komunista Kambodia nian. Hau nian fuan dodok no metin tebes waihira hau rona esplikasaun husi audio no hare mate rui ne’ebe naklekar iha armari bidru. Audio ne’e esplika katak, antes atu oho sira sei loke muzika ho lian bot no sei tortura ho todan. Ai-matan dukur hun bot ida maka Rezimi Komunista Kambodia hodi baku bebe sira nian ulun ba to’o mate. Rezimi ladun uza kilat musan hodi oho tamba karun atu sosa kilat, ne’e duni sira uza deit sasan kroat sira, inklui mos ai-talin ou tua mutin nia kain ne’ebe kroat hanesan gergaji hodi koa vitima sira nian kakorok.

Mate ruin iha Monumentu Killing Filed

 

 

Mate ruin husi vitima husi Rezimi Komunista Kambodia 1975-1979, Killing Field. Phnom Penh.

Ropa, sinelus, rui, nehan no sasan kroat. Killing Field, Phnom Penh

Fatin ida ne'e hakoi ema ho total 450. Killing Field, Phnom Penh.

Ai-matan dukur ne'ebe Rezimi Komunista uza hodi baku bebe nian ulun ba to'o mate. Killing Field, Phnom Penh.

 

Fatin seluk ami vizita maka, Genocide Museum hanesan fatin ba tortura ema Kambodia sira husi rezimi komunista. Fatin ne’e uluk eskola ida no muda ba fatin tortura. Iha fatin ne’e nian sumenti ita bele hare marka ran ne’ebe fakar iha tinan barak liu ba ( Rezimi Komunista Kambodia 1975-1979 ), ita mos bele hare fotografia no pintura tortura ne’ebe hakanek tebes fuan.

Fatin ne'e uluk sala eskola ida no Rezimi Komunista halo tia ba fatin tortura. Marka meta iha sumenti ne'e marka ran vitima husi tortura iha momentu ne'eba. Genocide Museum, Phnom Penh.

Husi fatin rua ne’e, ami ba tur iha restorante ida no komesa ami nian dada-lian ne’ebe lori komprendesaun mai hau. Kolega Kambodia ho naran Houng loke ami nian konversa, “razaun ne’ebe la rasional tebes rezimi komunista naton neba’a akuza ema sira ne’ebe sira oho tamba o matenek, tamba O nian kareira prefesional hanesan  dotor, pilotu, akademika, no seluk tan maka sira oho O”. Rona ninian esplikasaun hu sei nonok, maibe kolega husi Mianmar husu dadaun pergunta ba “tamba saida maka nune’e?”, kolega Kambodia seluk ho naran Vatey hatan “tamba tuir rezimi nian hanoin katak ema sira ne’e maka sei dehan lae ba politika ou desizaun husi rezimi no tauk orsida sira sei fo influensia ba sira seluk atu hamonu rezimi.” Kolega ne’e kontinua dehan, “hotu-hotu servisu halo to’os ba rezimi pois maka presija hahan husu ba rezimi fo, ne’e maka akontese ba hau nian aman no nia familia iha ami nian suku momentu ne’eba”. Hau kontinua husu, “saida maka akontese ba ekonomia Kambodia naton ne’e?”. kolega ne’e hatan, “rahun no estraga iha infrastrutura importante ne’ebe suporta ekonomia Kambodia nian hanesan portu, aeroportu no seluk tan no ema rihun ba rihun mate no sai refuziadu iha rai liur”. Rona ida ne’e hau dada i’is naruk no esplika ba sira saida maka hu hare iha fatin rua ne’e no taka ami nian konversa, “problema ne’ebe Rezimi Komunista Kambodia nato’on ne’e halo nian impaktu sei to’o agora hu sinti, tamba hau hare iha momentu neba’a rezimi ne’e halo programa kaben forsa ba feto no mane Kambodia no ikus mai sira sai vitima, ne’ebe ita bele hare husi sira nian lia-fuan sira ne’ebe sira dehan ba intervista-dor iha Genocide Museum. Iha feto ida dehan, “atu kaben momentu ne’eba maka hau nian arapende dahuluk. Depois hau isin-rua ho la iha ema ida maka tau matan mai hau no ida ne’e maka sai hau nian arapende daruak momentu ne’eba ( ..to marry was my first regret. Then, I became pregnant with no one to take care of me, which was my second regret..)”. imajina tok saida maka akontese ba familia ida ne’e no liu-liu ba oan husi familia ida ne’e? ezatamente impaktu negativu makas ba sira nian psikolozia ne’ebe lori ba sira nian mentalidade no ikus mai sira nian hahalok iha vida sosial, no mos sei impaktu to’o agora tamba vitima sira ne’e sei moris to’o agora no sira nian oan mos sei moris no tutan hari’i uma-kain ho mentalidade fraku ona ne’e, hau sei buka tuir tok. Maibe, hau espera fatin rua ne’ebe ita vizita ona ne’e bele fo lisaun ba zerasaun foun Kambodia no mundu hodi hakribi violensia ho forma saida deit hasoru humanidade. Ema ida nian moris mai husi valor tutan ba tutan no kuandu moris ne’e estraga, estraga mos valor hirak ne’e”.

Hatan ona katak, Kambodia nian dezenvolve uluk hanesan Nasaun Singapura ne’e lakon tamba violensia. Violensia ne’ebe Rezimi Komunista Kambodia nian momentu ne’eba halakon ona rekursu humanu, rekursu infrastrutura, sosial no ekonomia Kambodia nian no lori Kambodia monu tamba situasaun politika depois ne’e. Tamba la hotu iha ne’e deit Kambodia nian susar, Kambodia mos hetan invazaun mos husi Vietnam no situasaun politika rai laran ne’ebe la iha estabilidade no kontinua lori violensia naruk no to’o agora Kambodia sei koko hamrik husi sira nian hakdasak. 

Maibe, hau hare esperansa iha joven sira nian matan hanesan zerasaun foun Kambodia nian. Vatey dehan “hau hakarak aprende barak ho tuir aktividade organizasaun hodi aban-bainrua bele sai diplomata Kambodia ne’ebe diak”. No Houng dehan mai hau katak “hau halo ona aplikasaun barak-barak hodi atu hetan bolsu estudu no sei kontinua halo to’o hau hetan. Hau hakarak aprende liu tan, hakarak aprende barak-barak”. Hau mos asisti esperansa roman husi kolega Mianmar ho naran Judy, nia dehan “maske hau agora dadaun estuda enzineiru maibe hau hakarak estuda mos politika”.  Hau hare esperansa bot no espiritu atu avansa ba oin husi sira, nebe’e inspira tebes hau no karik ida ne’e maka sira nian hakat primeiru ba sira nian dalan ba aban-bainrua nian.

                                                                                          

Husi karuk: Houng ( Kambodia ), Vatey ( Kambodia ), Judy ( Mianmar ) no Hau. ASEAN Youth Forum 2016, Siem Reap, Kambodia.

                                                                         

Osaka, Japaun. 16 Setembru 2016

Mariani VK.